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I guess I am slowly adding thoughts to my last entry. I love my mother, she understands me more than anyone else. More than most, she understands what I'm going through because she went through it, too.

When I was 14, I watched this anime. I don't remember what it was, but I distinctly remember this one scene where the obedient grandchild was happily serving the family head. I let out a sigh and thought, "wouldn't life be so much easier if I were that girl?" but I knew back then that I wasn't that person, and I know it even more now. For the longest time, it bothered me. Why was I different than my cousins, friends & peers? Why did I want different things than they did? Or rather, why was I not as dignified? Not as ladylike? Why did I shamelessly want things that would make them gasp and look away? What was wrong with me?

Now, about a decade later I have finally started to grasp the answer to that question. Nothing. Nothing is wrong with me. We are all different people in our own individual ways. Whether we choose to be vocal about what we want, or silently wish for it to happen. Whether we actually reach for it, or watch from afar. Whether we are happy with what is given to us, or actually stretch ourselves beyond the limit trying to achieve more.

Right now, I see all these windows and doors that are half-open. If one door shuts, then I will open another, if I'm missing a key, then I'll try the window, if there are bars on it then I will squeeze myself between them. "You have to change, on the inside, to be able to move forward," she said, "And don't stop, never stop"

It's funny. I was doing something random on World of Warcraft. Fishing for coins off the wishing fountain in Dalaran for the achievements when I found a Silver Coin, with the most peculiar quote:

"Grant me the strength to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference"
- Antonidas' Silver Coin

And that's all I have to say for tonight! =P

After over a year of starting to watch it, I finally finished Yama Onna Kabe Onna. At first I was wondering if there was something wrong with my attention span lately, but then I came to the conclusion that: it was boring! I watched Seigi no Mikata again and it took me only a couple of days to finish it. It is so hilarious! Maybe it is due to how unrealistic and silly it is. It makes it incredibly entertaining. And, of course, I applaud the "big sister" on her choices of clothing, shoes & purses! However, it took a second watch for me to realize why it's such a good series. The uniqueness in the character design, and I mean "internally". Makiko- afraid of no one. The cute relationship between the parents (and their history!). Finally, Yoko- the model of a child that age at their most realistic, grades not perfect, life not perfect but you know what? I think she's happy.

Already decided on what to watch next: Celeb to Binbo Taro! I'm waiting for an episode of Mei-chan no Shitsuji to see if I'd like it. Sort of interested in Mirai Koshi Meguru if I find any seeds, and Fugo Keiji if it ever gets subbed.

Just when I thought I was losing interest in poupeegirl, I decided to give my doll a makeover. New hair to suit winter, and the eyes with the hearts because...well, hearts are pretty & happy ♥

This is the scrub I've been using... Sugar Crush! It smells pretty good. Soap & Glory are very witty when it comes to their packaging and text. If you can't read it in the image, here's what the 2nd box says: "SCRUBBERS BEWARE: Please don't use this scrub over irritated or abraded skin as doing so might, uh, hurt. (No kidding?)" and the 3rd (red) box: "At Soap & Glory we believe in scrub at first sight (of dry, flaky skin, specifically)".

So far I am very impressed with my new work.

I tried a C200 today and I'm not so sure it's my kind of car.

It sucks when you start to have expectations...because it seems that they cannot be met. But now I finally understand how he must have felt, the way he acted...I can understand it better now.

I have so much work to finish this weekend. My literature review, a presentation for work, my finance presentation for school. I dunno why I'm not really up for anything lately.

It's funny how a while ago we were looking at that Alice magazine and thought it would be cool if poupee girl had some of the outfits, or well, my wish list item was the strawberry tights and my wish was fulfilled!

In Ramadan I went to Deira City Center to hunt for Hello Kitty stationery supplies. However, when I got to where the Sanrio store was I discovered that it had moved (to a larger store); but it was replaced with an actual stationery store! That is where I found the following items (and purchased nothing from Sanrio, that's a first lol):

Another bullet point entry to organize my thoughts.

• Yesterday marked the start of Hallow's End on World of Warcraft. My mage is at 10 out of 16. I think the G.N.E.R.D achievement won't be too difficult at Alterac Valley or Wintergrasp, haven't done PVP as much as I used to. The Check Your Head achievement might be challenging if I can't find any more pumpkin heads. I'm also worried about the Sinister Calling achievement...I did brewfest daily and still couldn't get the Ram, I really wanted it...I got the achievement for the Kodo, though.


• Since I was upset about not getting the Ram (even though I saw it drop on both my characters SO many times just got out-rolled on it), I decided to go for Mag'har rep to get a Talbuk mount. I bought 6 of them! lol Can't decide what to do next...maybe try to get my fishing high enough to do the dailies.


• I will not forgive people that forget about me! ):<


• New job starts Wednesday! (:


• First ride in over TWO MONTHS was on Saturday, rode D and had no stamina to do much. She has such a comfortable canter but she dropped her head and I had my first fall of the season and scraped/bruised my chin...lol! My baby C is doing competitions now, I'm so proud of him! Looking forward to next week's lesson.


• Got 2 bathing suits yesterday...the first one has one strap and the other is strapless. Had a swimming lesson yesterday and found out that I can swim freestyle, dolphin and frog. Go figure! I never knew! lol


• Lastly I wanted to show you guys the compact (well, it is kind of big) mirror that I got a few months ago. It is supposed to look like a white chocolate bar, ironic as I don't like white chocolate. I prefer dark chocolate over milk, too.