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She wears her heart on her sleeve

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 15:52:20 GMT

So far I am very impressed with my new work.

I tried a C200 today and I'm not so sure it's my kind of car.

It sucks when you start to have expectations...because it seems that they cannot be met. But now I finally understand how he must have felt, the way he acted...I can understand it better now.

I have so much work to finish this weekend. My literature review, a presentation for work, my finance presentation for school. I dunno why I'm not really up for anything lately.

It's funny how a while ago we were looking at that Alice magazine and thought it would be cool if poupee girl had some of the outfits, or well, my wish list item was the strawberry tights and my wish was fulfilled!

In Ramadan I went to Deira City Center to hunt for Hello Kitty stationery supplies. However, when I got to where the Sanrio store was I discovered that it had moved (to a larger store); but it was replaced with an actual stationery store! That is where I found the following items (and purchased nothing from Sanrio, that's a first lol):

Hallow's End

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 11:26:37 GMT

Another bullet point entry to organize my thoughts.

Yesterday marked the start of Hallow's End on World of Warcraft. My mage is at 10 out of 16. I think the G.N.E.R.D achievement won't be too difficult at Alterac Valley or Wintergrasp, haven't done PVP as much as I used to. The Check Your Head achievement might be challenging if I can't find any more pumpkin heads. I'm also worried about the Sinister Calling achievement...I did brewfest daily and still couldn't get the Ram, I really wanted it...I got the achievement for the Kodo, though.

Since I was upset about not getting the Ram (even though I saw it drop on both my characters SO many times just got out-rolled on it), I decided to go for Mag'har rep to get a Talbuk mount. I bought 6 of them! lol Can't decide what to do next...maybe try to get my fishing high enough to do the dailies.

I will not forgive people that forget about me! ):<

New job starts Wednesday! (:

First ride in over TWO MONTHS was on Saturday, rode D and had no stamina to do much. She has such a comfortable canter but she dropped her head and I had my first fall of the season and scraped/bruised my chin...lol! My baby C is doing competitions now, I'm so proud of him! Looking forward to next week's lesson.

Got 2 bathing suits yesterday...the first one has one strap and the other is strapless. Had a swimming lesson yesterday and found out that I can swim freestyle, dolphin and frog. Go figure! I never knew! lol

Lastly I wanted to show you guys the compact (well, it is kind of big) mirror that I got a few months ago. It is supposed to look like a white chocolate bar, ironic as I don't like white chocolate. I prefer dark chocolate over milk, too.

don't worry, be happy!

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 13:51:31 GMT

Started an observational internship at a certain nameless government organization, only to be forced to leave them a week later due to breech of contract, and the demand for unethical courses of action. It's fine. I am confident that it will work out for the best. I have nothing to be sad about, because at least I now understand my moral limitations.

I am extremely tired lately, due to having had work on a daily basis and classes. Due to that I haven't had much time for WoW...yet this is when I actually want to play WoW!

As for WoW, I have two newbie characters that I've been working on lately: my mage and my priest. Lately people have been wanting to party my priest over my mage...so I only do solo stuff on mage...like level my professions and such. My current goal is to max mining, followed by maxing enchanting (ahhh hella expensive!), and hopefully get a talbuk mount.

Made plans to station-hop via the Dubai Metro this weekend!

Yesterday, I went to my spa for a facial...I felt like my skin was breaking out and I really blame cream de la mer, it is much too rich for me. Ended up picking this sugar plum oil-free moisturizer to use instead, it feels extremely light on my skin...almost too light to be honest. I want something to bring a balance between oily and dry...wonder if this is it.

Officially haven't been on a horse since August, withdrawal symptoms! Helpppp!

Decided that...it was finally time for a violet stam. Uhuh.

Managerial finance is tough- but my friend and I are going to figure it out together!

Rediscovered my love for books: more on this later.

I got a new pink electronic...more on this later as well! Need to mess around with it a bit more.

Been putting rose petals in my cinnamon tea- I recognize the uses of cinnamon, yet I still refuse to yield to its taste, so I try to cover it up.

Love and War and Snow

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 16:15:05 GMT

Earlier today I went into the living room to find my mother and brother watching a movie on VHS. The scenes seemed to be the kind that would normally turn me into a nervous wreck, but wait...that looks familiar! They said the movie was Volcano, it made me laugh. I was the one that purchased the movie and watched it along with my other natural disaster favourites when I was younger. I do wonder what happened there, how did I shift interests like that?

Currently copying batch 2 of the dvds that betsuni gave me. Yes I took so long haha. Will hopefully give them back to you soon ♥ thank you! I still need to locate some dvds that I got from ai_chyan (thru nari)...I know I put them somewhere safe but ~~I can't seem to remember where that safe place is... {insert bbm embarrassed face here }~~ I found them! ♥

I am happy I finally went to send that package. The person that took it and did all the procedures was very friendly. I've been tracking it since yesterday. So excited!

I miss when my desktop was pink and cute. Need to try to remember (or research) how to do that again... ♥

All this candy somehow made its way into my room in Ramadan. Gifts from various relatives returning from their summer holidays. See that white and pink thing in the back? Upon seeing the wrapping, fruits and "yoghurt" on it, my family quickly assumed that I would be the only person that wouldn't mind having it. They assumed right! Once I had the first piece, I knew I wasn't sharing! lol. It was so yummy ♥ Reminded me of Ferrero Yogurettes, which were also chocolate and strawberry flavoured basically, that someone brought over from germany a few years ago, but even yummier. I would really like to have either of these right now...wonder if that ever-famed store in mall of arabia would have it...

presence of mind

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 13:49:34 GMT

I recently picked up season 3 of heroes and I am dazzled, and not really in a good way. It seems like all characters have gone through a 180° turn it's not pretty! I feel like I wanna watch but at the same time it's just too much and I'm too scared of what's happening...scared as on "OMGTHEYDIDN'T" not scared as in "OMGSAVEME"

Once, we were out at festival city and passed by that booth that sells all those zip up bags and nail buffers. they have the pushiest sales people that will follow you to the end of the walk way just to make you try their products. she would ignore them completely and pass by like no one is talking to her. i, on the other hand, have a problem doing that. i find it very difficult to ignore people that are talking to me because i worry about hurting their feelings. sales people are only doing their job, no matter how pushy! our conversation went something like this:
her: why do you always give them the chance to drag you in?
me: i dunno...{sarcasm} i'm a nice person!
her: *shaking her head*
me: or...i'm very naive and stupid...
her: *smirks* at least you admit.

My nail spa sells the most awesome smelling products! i got a mini bottle of lotion for my purse and it smells like vanilla & wild plum. when i first tried it, i thought it was some kind of bubblegum...LOL but i carry it around in my purse and every time i use it, whoever is around starts asking what that is, such a refreshing scent! My other addiction is 'loccitane. some of their rose scentd products smelled good but weren't very smoothing...but when i looked in the other corner of their shop, i found rosebud shea better! Smoothing & rose scented, great combination, isn't it?

It's been a while since I've come home with a large orange box/bag. normally would feel guilty but i am very pleased with the contents of he box. a colour i've never owned before, in a size i've only dreamed of. there was an almost last winter but i decided against it. i can't wait for my peach/orange/pink one!

Dubai Mall is home to all store supersized, forever 21 is no exception. It's actually organized by style / line and there's one part of the store that houses the basics that are hard to find everywhere else. Then I went to the branch in Deira City Center and it was redesigned...i actually miss f21's old windows! But anyway. From Dubai Mall I got that white babydoll style top, a little floral vintage looking clutch/wallet & that shopping bag! I actually got a bunch more of those eco shopping bags since then because they're always useful to carry around.

What colour should I paint my nails today?

One Stormy Night

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 21:32:58 GMT

"Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them." - William Shakespeare

I am the kind of person that likes to experience things first hand to be able to learn them, I can't be told how to do something, I would have to try it before it starts to make sense and before I am even told. If someone tries to explain it before I try and gain my own understanding of it, instructions will not even make sense. I am not so arrogant that I think I can do everything and learn everything on my own, that just doesn't make sense. At the same time...I don't want people to openly tell me to do things a certain way, or that their way is more efficient than mine, because it'll just make me feel bad and will eventually lower my efficiency. That's just the kind of person I am and I know myself. I like instructions to be subtle, I like to walk in on a conversation that has information relevant to what I'm doing rather than be lectured about it. I don't think my way of wanting to do things is wrong, and I do know that I will have to put up with all sorts of learning experiences in my life. I just wish the people closest to me are more understanding, rather than just making me feel like crap when we are supposed to be just doing an enjoyable activity.

The other day, I went to get my roots redone. I trust my stylist and usually whenever I tell her I am interested in doing a certain thing with my hair, she usually has suggestions and sometimes will tell me that it won't work for me and shouldn't do it! My roots are chocolate now and non low-lighted. She said it works good for winter. I like it since I was thinking I don't want to go any lighter!

Over the summer I went on a sudden shopping trip with my sister and betsuni that I never really posted about. There wasn't much loot except the following. Apparently all fashionable and stylish ladies think that scrunchies are not for them, but hey! I'm' not one of them! I can wear some tiny and cute little floral or pastel coloured scrunchies if I want to! I got a pair of cropped polka dot leggings recently for that gray mini skirt, and a blue t shirt to go with that gradient skirt. That pink t shirt was a freebie!!! And those are the jeans that made me discover that I am actually a size 2. Probably gained weight over ramadan but those jeans are my safety net, I won't guilt trip myself!

I am trying very hard not to think about school right now.

cold and sleepy

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 15:30:13 GMT

Finally his dvds arrived... now I gotta get the package ready. I am very nervous about that, for some reason. I'm a customer! The shipping industry should be there to assist me, not scare me into a hole! I also feel uncomfortable allowing people to go through my package...and only sort of understand why some companies deem it necessary.

On my trip to the UK in 2004, I found out that GAP had the most awesome stuff. Their clothes were basic, but elegant. They had these really cute satchels that came in bright colours. Some were printed on the inside and plain on the outside while others were the opposite. My sister had one in pink while I had one in peach. The one my sister had looked like that one. I don't have mine anymore but my sister still has hers. They were cute, I recently got another similar one for really cheap but it's like velvet or velour or something...they don't have anything like this recently.

It seems like my favourite thing to talk about lately is product. I've switched back to supermarket brands, and now my scalp is crying! It misses fredric fekkai's shea butter. To be fair, the nivea shampoo does make my hair look pretty good. not that i'm planning on replenishing this bottle when it runs out lol. A while ago I was buying something from l'occitane and I was given samples of a line of facial products apparently "preferred by 20-30 ladies" because it "pulls" and "tightens" the face. At the time I thought hmm...what would I want with that? But lately i've been using a weekly micro peel & mask from carita and it does make my face feel "tight", it felt pretty good but i don't know...I'd like to think that maybe it's too soon for me to try to use stuff like that.

The other night I had a dream about this girl that I had problems with in the past...that she was apologizing for hurting my feelings, but she misspelled my name in the package / letter that she sent me. bleh...i don't want to think back to those days. I think we've all spent time agonizing over everything and I certainly don't expect an apology, and don't even know what I did wrong. I am also not interested in hearing their side of the story. It's all enough.

I wore those crocs from my last entry to school the other day, felt like I wasn't wearing shoes at all. They were so comfortable! Don't regret the purchase at all!

Been using this sweet almond oil nail balm on my nails pretty regularly. I like it. it's from The Face Shop. speaking of which, i heard from a friend in RAK that there is a branch of The Face Shop in RAK!!! That is certainly closer to me than Mall of the Emirates! =) my nails have been dry because of all the constant nail-painting adventures.

Chococat & Cinnamon Rolls

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 19:48:49 GMT

I lost my glasses and I feel blind! They were my only glasses, too. My Miu Miu glasses with the teeny tiny frames and white line on the side. Need to get my eyes checked again, anyway. Think I lost them (or forgot them) at school, as usual.

My daily cleanser hasn't been doing the trick lately, so I decided to add Soap and Glory's Off Your Face facial tissues. They do help but they kind of sting. I like Soap and Glory because they are kinda quirky and witty like Benefit.

So I caved in and bought Crocs. Before, when I used to hear the word "Crocs" I thought about those beach clubs that remind me of those beach shoes that children wear and I hate those for an adult! But during summer my aunt was saying her friend wore some crocs model a lot and had it in all available colours and was like, "stop being so small-minded, they are the most comfortable shoes in the world!" so my aunt got a pair of their flip flops and loved them. So the other week I passed by the Crocs kiosk in festival city & felt their pair of malindi's calling me. I got them in Cotton Candy & mis-matched gem charms. Aren't they adorable? They are so comfy, too, it feels like I am walking on cotton candy or a pillow!

Today I went to visit the horses & someone's freaked out horse reared on top of me!! Actually I was in front of B's stall giving him some baby carrots when a guy on a horse passed by. He looked behind him and a young boy was on another horse, was trying to pass through the stable area but his horse was too freaked out. So the older guy went back behind him and the freaked out horse passed through. When the other guy's horse was passing by me I bent down to pick up one of the baby carrots that B dropped out of my hand. When I looked up his horse had just come down and the guy was telling him off. Kinda freaked me out! The other people with them were giving me weird looks, I dunno if I scared their horse or if they were worried it would break me to pieces, lol.

This screenshot is from the last day we had that shop event at poupee girl. I am proud of this outfit!

Ramadan Mubarak

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 19:22:55 GMT

Hope everyone is enjoying their Ramadan ♥

Went back to school yesterday and everyone started asking about the NYU scholarship...I guess the school was informed about the students that were accepted, but I guess they didn't know I rejected mine. I didn't feel like explaining that to everyone. But I'm not upset or sad =) I know that I will get my chance to see the world and experience things I never even imagined ♥ and I strongly believe that patience is rewarded.

Lately I've been trying to experiment with nail polish & nail art. I don't have visuals of everything I've been doing but I like the layer of glitter that I got from The Face Shop ♥ Found them in several colours & in my opinion they do add a tint of a colour to any colour that you already have on your nails. Though the picture doesn't show it.

The new event at poupee girl is really cute. I like the surprise/gift type items but it would've been cool to be able to get these kinds of items for friends & such. The event background is adorable, I would love to go into a store decorated like that. It reminds me of Juicy Couture, Lollipops, Sa*ce and Ginger & Spice combined. All their stores have the girlie but vintage look about them. Actually, I once read that Juicy Couture's interior was designed to look like a girl's closet! I wish that purple wallpaper in the event bg would be released as a wallpaper item. It's amusing to me that I keep saying that after every single event, "why can't I keep the wallpaper?"

There is a big variety of items under Sundries -> Others. Including shopping bags, umbrellas / parasols, toys & sweets / ice-cream. It would make things a lot easier if these things could be further categorized to make finding them easier when we go to dress our doll.

Ridiculously overprotective

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 13:31:57 GMT

Today I had a talk with this woman, her nationality - foreign, is irrelevant, what is relevant is only the intriguing topic that we talked about. She said when people come to this country with visit visas to try and find work, she noticed that females seem to find employment much easier than males. However, I do not know what kinds of jobs and qualifications. I brought up that I would love to work in a foreign country one day, I don't know if that will ever happen but I do hope that something like that will one day be a possibility to me.

We were quiet after that while I took a few more sips of my peppermint tea. Then she brought up another topic, one that she seemed to struggle even bringing up worrying that it might offend me. I still (more or less) remember our conversation:

Her: Let's say that you did move to another country, like Canada or the UK, and have been working or studying there for several years. What if you met a man that you fell in love with? Would marrying him be possible?

Me: Well, I don't know...

Her: No? You don't think that it's possible?
She added something that meant that she wanted to hear my take on it, not my culture's or family's. Just my raw opinion on the matter.

Me: If I were to marry someone he'd have to be Muslim.

Her: So if he convert, you'd be fine with it?

Me: Just because I'm fine with it doesn't mean that my family will be. I don't actually know their thoughts on this. My main concern is whether he was Muslim or not.

(Of course there would be other things to consider, but those things you figure out together with the person that asks, or asks you to marry them :p and will go for any kind of belief system out there probably)

Her: What if he didn't want to convert? What if he wanted you to convert to his religion? Would you do it?

Me: No, I would not.

Her: Oh, I see. Because your family is Muslim, right?
(It sounded to me like she was trying to justify my putting my beliefs over "love", but I could be wrong. There was a very sympathetic look on her face.)

Me: No, honestly, it has nothing to do with my family. I love my beliefs and lifestyle, and I am very happy with it.

Her: So nothing can come of it if he doesn't want to convert?

Me: I know of some that married according to other countries' laws, where the woman was Muslim and the man was not but I do not believe that a marriage like that will hold in an Islamic court. So to me, that is not even a marriage.

I do not recall where the conversation went after that, or even where my thoughts started floating off to. Marriage is not a concern to me at all, I am perfectly happy with my life the way it is and I like that currently, I am the big unknown to plunge myself into. There are options for what I want to do, pursue a career, studying languages, engross myself in hobbies & interests or even try and go for a master's degree. Those are the things that I can think of right now, who knows what else I might think up when I've gone out there and had a taste of the world. And who knows, I may not have such a cheerful and "open-ended" outlook on life anymore, or maybe I would get even more cheerful and look back on these days as "The Dark Ages,". No one knows what will happen, but we can only take small steps into the direction that we want keeping the "big picture" in mind.

Yesterday I found out that I can wear size 26 jeans, but if I keep snacking on those cookies and jellies it won't be like that for long, lol.

Watching that episode of Gilmore Girls with Lane's wedding...I actually like the dress that Lorelai spilled coffee on, it looks quite Korean to me. If I were to ever get married I'd wear something like that with pants, haha. Except maybe I'd make it more equestrian.

I got these bedsheets a while back...but the comforter / throw is just so uncomfortable that I don't know how long I can survive with using it. Will probably change back to one of the older blankets and sheets today, but can't decide what. This was a good change from my regular florals, but I do miss them.

Reach for the Stars

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 23:58:25 GMT

When first seeing how Gilmore Girls ended, I remember being upset and disappointed. That quickly changed to feeling completely indifferent and eventually getting over the series and forgetting about it. I was disappointed that there was no real closure for the relationship between Lorelai and Luke, I used to root for them. I was sad that Rory rejected Logan's marriage proposal, I thought they were good together and that she shouldn't have chosen her career over him.

However, after watching the season finale again some years later, I can kinda understand. A lot of people can relate to characters, especially if they are of the same generation. Recently I've come to the conclusion that there's a lot that I want to do with my life, and being tied to a person or family will prevent me from going after what I want. Whatever we do, we should give our all and have no sense of longing for something else, whether it is a career, the pursuit of higher education, the pursuit of leisure and fun, marriage and starting a family. I will no longer allow myself watch through a window, daydreaming about a life that I can't have.

Isn't my mother cute? The picture on the left shows her products, strawberry flavored body cream, Soap & Glory's peach body butter & Cocoa butter that she uses on her feet when she wears cotton socks to sleep; the cocoa butter was actually mine but I couldn't stand the smell so she said she would use it. I told her that I am going to take a picture of them to post on my livejournal and tell people how cute she is, she said, "make sure my blue bedspread shows so they'd think I'm even cuter!" ♥

My neck feels so sore, and I feel like I bit the inside of my cheeks and tongue. The past few nights have been a bit uncomfortable, but I know the main cause is my latest "accident". It feels like my brain doesn't shut down at all and I keep overthinking everything, even in my sleep. I am excited, but at the same time worried and a little sad, afraid of getting my heart broken again and feeling all that disappointment. As if I'm going to allow another plan to fall out.

Cath Kidston has awesome stuff ♥ Already got some of their bedding & towels, but I picked up their catalogue a short while back it had a little tote bag that came with it. It got me interested in their online store. Even though I got at least 3 mugs over this past summer, it will be a difficult to resist these! Dots, florals and fruits, where do I sign up? ♥

Super Duper

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 11:22:34 GMT

I was under the impression that we were going to go out for lunch, but the trip was cut short when something was forgotten. Hm. It's not that I mind, a seafood paella was waiting for me at home (a whole 500 calories of it, snack not included), but I'd hoped to get some caffeinated drink as I didn't get enough in the morning, I am quite sleepy right now, which might explain why I feel bored with everything.

On another note, I no longer need to find my sandals ♥ because I found them! Made the purchase at Vincci, earlier, these type of shoes don't really look very flattering on my feet (the again, I don't think the shoe are the problem =) but they're my feet and lol if I don't love them who will? ♥) but they are so cute and basic that I feel is a must in a casual not-too-trendy closet. The top closing part is actually very functional, and easier than a buckle. I like how the heel is lightly printed, too, gives it a little unique detail! Best part? The price was right ♥

That wasn't the only thing I picked up today. I've been gradually wanting to switch to MAC brushes after trying their blush-brush...but after today I think that's it. I no longer need any brushes! I am really excited to use them, even though I don't wear make up regularly. Sometimes it worries me. My skin is far from perfect but sometimes I see girls I used to know in high school and they look old...like they definitely look older than me even though they are my age. I am just wondering what causes that, too many facial products? Too little? No sunblock? Heavy make up daily? Not enough water? My mother says it's genetic sometimes, and of course whatever I look like I will love & deal with but I am just wondering how it happens. My skin has lots of problems, it is actually more oily than anything lately and breaks out so often. Last time I went to Dubai Mall, I visited this shop called Fresh Line, they are really cute. I bought some deep cleansing mud mask from them in order to correct the oiliness of my skin, and it is actually excellent. However, I don't see any trips to Dubai Mall coming up any time soon, because I bought a really small amount just to try it so I'll have to make due with other stuff. Someone on a forum suggested Neutrogena, used to use their foaming cleanser in high school, so I might pick up their daily scrub next time I go grocery shopping ♥ I don't plan to always use a daily scrub but just until the weather is cooler at least.

Arabian Nights

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 11:08:39 GMT

Changed more items in my poupee closet, but I've already forgotten what they are. Not that it matters, I find myself getting increasingly bored with poupee girl. It no longer matters to me what kind of events are going on, and what new items are being released. I like some of the jewel items that were released today, but is it really worth it? I suppose to varies from person to person and what they value more (their time/money/etc). I find that lately doing comment clubs and whatnot to be such a chore and I tire of it, but at the same time I don't want to spend real money on it anymore...or at least not for now, who knows what I'll feel about it in a few days/weeks/whatever since I'm fickle like that.

Kingdom Hearts RE: Chain of Memories has been fun. I'm still less than 10 hours in, paused at the battle in Agrabah. I'm out of attack cards (only got 2 left, 1 & 5) and have a healing card still (6, I think) and boss has a bar and less than 1/4th left. He is not able to kill me, but I am not able to hurt him that fast, either. In the beginning of the battle I wasn't sure what I was supposed to be attacking so I wasted a lot of cards like that...doing combos into the air, lol. Reset battle? ♥

These wallets are cute, I want one in white, or black. But not a big want, I have no need for a new wallet. Or new shoes for that matter but my issue with shoes is ongoing... these punk boots / booties / no idea what to call them are really cool but awfully trendy. Tend to regret getting "trendy" things because they spread so fast and you just get sick of seeing or owning them. These sandals are perfect, but I am worried about sizing. If it's a bit small I could give it to one of the other ladies in my household, but I have the largest feet lol. Man I am scared of buying stuff off ebay now.

Been going to spa / salon with my cousin quite a bit lately. Had my nails painted teal last time we went, and yesterday we went for a facial and massage. I like how my skin feels after a facial but my face is getting so oily lately...suspect my toner or cream de la mer.

Castle Oblivion

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 12:00:17 GMT

So the other night I decided I needed a game that wasn't Katamari Damacy or World of Warcraft to play, and remembered that I set aside Re: Chain of Memories (the PS2 game - not the GBA one) to play after I've finished the first Kingdom Hearts again (why? I don't know, played that so many times already). Played that game a bit on the Gameboy Advance before but it just wasn't my thing, at the time I really didn't like portable game consoles because I felt like I couldn't see (that all changed with the arrival of Nintendo DS), and the battle system didn't make much sense to me. This time, however, I'm having tons of fun! Didn't get to play for that long and I think I messed up by selecting Wonderland as my 2nd floor (didn't feel like doing any of the others for now) because the battle I'm at right now seems a bit difficult, they keep breaking my cards! But I'll figure it out. It is sad that I wanna stay home and play this game now...

Ugh, I'm wearing my apple bottom jeans today and they're cute because they have apples on the back pockets but I don't recall them being this loose. I tried on lots of jeans when I was there and this was the only one that fit. I don't think I lost any weight, but they look messy! There's only one store that makes "kath jeans" and probably shouldn't get them anywhere else now.

By the way, do you guys like that skull mug in the picture? I love it to bits. Bought from the Pirates of the Caribbean gift shop right at the exit of the ride at Disneyland Paris last summer. It is my absolute favourite mug of all time, and the ride is my family's favourite as well. Due to my love for karak, milktea & caramel chai latte, I absolutely need cute things to drink it in. The following two are the ones I use whenever I'm at my grandmother's or aunt's house.

Between stroking his face and showering him with kisses, I decided that there was something he should know. "Let me tell you a secret," I whispered, "I love you the most!" and I bet he acknowledges it, too, because for the 15 minutes that I was with him he preferred to stand around and get attention from me rather than lunge at his hay ♥ So glad that I am with a different trainer now. The 5 o'clock lesson is pretty intense but I know I can do it. Last week I said that I think I am starting to feel when my approach to the jump is too short or too long, my trainer said that was good but now I need to learn how to correct it ♥ The jumps we were going at were nothing new, the same jumps that we've been doing for weeks - maybe even lower than last week's; but this time we had to count down 3 strides to the jump. We also had to adjust our striding in between the double.

Going to go read for a bit before going out... yes, read! me! But I will leave you with the stuff that I received from Victoria's Secret & a box of jelly candies from M&S. The box looks so retro, doesn't it? For their 125th anniversary they decided to use some of their vintage designs for their products, and you know what? I like the fonts / typography here much better! ♥

boys are stupid, throw rocks at them!

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 12:41:58 GMT

Just had spicy shrimp thai style pizza for lunch, and it was delicious! Now trying to gobble down my vanilla kisses with my tea but I am not too sure if I can...

Read somewhere that they think it's ok to change items in your poupee closet. So here are some changes: Chains twilly, bracelet, Watercolor Belt, Wild Plum Lotion, Mystic Eyes, Extremely High Heels, Heart coin purse #2, Lychee Hair Mist, The Beat Lotion (already ran out of this!), Watermelon Socks & the Pink Grapefruit lip butter (only changed picture on the last one). Yeah I've been working hard =P but there are probably a couple more items that I wanna change.

When I went to MOE some weeks ago, I dropped by the Marc Jacobs boutique for a visit to look for this shoulder bag in any colour & at a stam. I only found the stam, in many colours including the one I was interested in (violet), but quickly decided that I didn't want it anymore. In my disappointment of not finding the shoulder bag, I purchased a few other things from several different places, one being a similar bag but in a much smaller size (pictures later maybe?). While browsing neimenmarcus I decided that I really do like these Juicy Couture booties afterall. Both shoulder bag & booties actually cost more than I wanna fork out at the moment, but I can drool over them, can't I? Don't even know if I can order stuff from neimenmarcus anymore anyway.

Speaking of wish-list items, I am still really interested in this Coach sabrina in cobalt, such an amazing colour & I do not own anything in it. My aunt has a sabrina, though, and if I recall it is kind of small. These MICHAEL by Michael Kors sandals might be a more affordable alternative to those Juicy Couture booties.

But I don't know. I have more than enough bags and keep using a different one often, as my mother suggested, so I wouldn't feel like I need something new whenever I feel like it. I was really proud of myself for not thinking of those purses anymore, and it's not like I need any new shoes either. Or well, I guess a more suitable thing to say is that I would like a pair of black basic sandals in a "certain" style. You know how you're sometimes looking for that perfect something? You know exactly what it looks like, but it doesn't seem to exist, even though you are sure it used to be around all the time?

The closest match I found at nordstrom are these cute wedges, if only they weren't T-Straps; otherwise they'd have been perfect. Been browsing endless, and there's always something wrong with every "close match" not high enough & too shiny, too high & don't like the double ankle wrap thing and not sure I like the fabric at the upper parts. Where are my shoes?!

Last week, we went to a clinic in the village & after an emergency trip to Boots my sister went into this magical little bakery / restaurant / coffee shop & it was heavenly. Almost every person's happy place, we left high on sugar & with these as our loot.

lol...I'm at 1/3 of those 50cals ea vanilla kisses. anyone want? bleh my face seems so puffy today...

One day I'll fly away

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 09:26:42 GMT

The other day I happened to wake up from a long day-time nap (due to sheer exhaustion) at around 7.30 pm or 8 pm. Hugging my hot water pouch I started scattering the house in search for food or anything edible and couldn't be classified as total junk; however - there was dinner on the table and as a last resort I decided to have some of that. My youngest brother was watching some tv shows on some kids' channel. I sat there and somehow found myself really into it! How often does that happen? I can't remember the name of the show he was watching but I enjoyed it...it made me nostalgic to the type of shows I used to watch as a child & young adult ♥ even though I don't even remember all of their names.

When I was younger, we had The Disney Channel, Cartoon Network (at one point the Indian one and then at a later one the UK one; and somehow I like the Indian one better), and Nickelodeon but probably none of them at the same time. Among my favourite shows were Flash Forward, Ocean Girl (used to watch this on Channel 33 & purchased the first season on DVD last year ♥ found it on eBay!), Thunder Alley (Haley Joel Osment was in this when he was a kid!), The Torkelsons; which was later replaced with Almost Home, Brotherly Love (the Lawrence brothers ♥ including Joseph Lawrence; who I'm sure you've all seen in that really old show Blossom, I used to think he was cute lol ♥), Even Stevens, William Shatner's A Twist in the Tale that I never got to watch because it was on TV at 11pm and I wasn't allowed to stay up later than that lol - it was 10pm at Saudi Arabia and I kept asking my cousin to tell me what happened. There was also one other show on the Disney channel, an Australian show about this group of young people that like video games that were hired to be game testers by this one company? I remember anticipating it when there were first ads about it but when it was on, it was really cheesy hehe. Does anyone recognize it? I can't remember the name, my siblings also recall the characters & events but not the title.

Later that night, I went through my dvds and decided to watch Black Beauty, and as usual bawled my eyes out. Then today I randomly started thinking of Moulin Rouge, but probably only because of the soundtrack.

These are the photos from when we went to The Cove Rotana Resort in RAK last week. The property was absolutely beautiful, totally soothing. Perfect for a weekend getaway - just not in the summer! It was way too humid which caused us to need to use the inter-property transport methods which were a car or buggy; and probably due to the humidity was high in demand and there just wasn't enough of them. We would walk, the walks aren't long but for people that aren't going to walk with the purpose of their walk being a pool or beach, then the walk isn't going to be very pleasant due to the humidity.

Usually when I talk about getting a trim my aunt goes crazy and talks me out of it saying that, "you have such beautiful long hair!", even though my hair was long...it wasn't pretty, the parts that I got a perm for a few years ago were completely atrocious; it got to the point where even looking at the bottom half of my hair made me almost neurotic. Last time I brought up the trim in front of her (because seriously, I think my haircut would bother her more than it would me, LOL ♥) she was like, "well, just cut off the parts you permed before," and that is when it hit me... my hair looks THAT bad!

After a few canceled appointments I decided it was time to woman-up & just do it. On Thursday I went to my regular salon (my regular stylish is on vacation) and was asked, "What kind of hair cut do you want? Just a trim?" I said yes, but then I looked at the ends of my hair and added, "but a trim would change my hair-cut right now wouldn't it? It wouldn't be as layered!" so the stylist asked if I wanted a restyle and started describing a style for me that would include chopping off all the "bad" hair. Like an impulse purchase, I found myself saying yes and before I knew it I was going home with really short hair...

Well. It's not THAT short it's just shorter than I ever thought I'd like again. Figured, why get upset about it? The deed is done and I better just enjoy how light it is! After my hair cut I went to get my nails done, it really has been a while. My finger nails didn't get this long in...years probably. Got a beige creamy colour on my toes & fairy-tale purple on my hands. People kept commenting on the colour & asking if I had nail extensions done...wow. I'm sure they are just compliments because I think my nails look pretty real because my thumb nails aren't done the same way the rest of them are because they break more often! lol

oops i did it again!!!

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 18:12:15 GMT

I finished Australia's Next Top Model sometime last week. There was this one part in one episode that made me cry... when one of the girl's mother was going to move to another country and they called her mother over on the show to say goodbye...and then turns out they invited all the other girls' mothers too. I was bawling my eyes out! It felt so...warm! ♥

Yama Onna Kabe Onna is finally growing on me. I am turtaling my way through it though. One of the characters grosses me out, but none of the girls do. It made me wonder if I could ever work in sales...probably not...I'm not "pushy" enough because I'm not appreciative of pushy sales people.

Someone seems to have forgotten their phone... =(

There are lots of people at my house right now but they're watching some movies together and I can't watch movies anymore. I will probably start chattering away, which will distract them from the movie, or they'll keep pausing every time I speak which will bore me and I'll end up leaving halfway through. I think they're watching Knowing and Session 9 while the kids have شعبية الكرتون on in the living room.

A while ago, I made an order at Victoria's Secret and on the day we headed off to RAK, I received email confirmation that my order was shipped! Yay! ♥ I only ever ordered something from there once... and that was YEARS ago! It was a pair of shoes for my sister shipped to our PO Box, long before Ship & Ship =P

So last Friday, we went to Burjman for dinner and shopping. I decided to do something new with my nails...it reminded me that I need a good top coat. Also carried these two re-usable shopping totes in my oversized shoulder bag. It sucks that the totes are so crumpled, as a result of folding them up and carrying them with me so often, maybe it would be safe to iron them?

We stopped at many different stores where I picked up some "basics" that I lack right now. Found everything I wanted ♥ from tank tops, to leggings, to cropped leggings, sleepwear and printed tee shirts. I even got a pair of printed leggings! Floral printed! Isn't that awesome? You can see them in the picture with that printed tee with those two girls. After dinner I went to saks and...somewhere else (which explains the dark brown shopping bag in the background). We ate at Japengo that evening, had some sashimi & green tea ♥

there she goes

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 13:57:37 GMT

Just realized that this is a vacation that I'm not sure I want to end. Last time I was on vacation I felt so bored that I wanted college to start again, but now... since the end of august will make the start of my final semester at hct. The last two semesters were difficult to get used to due to the class timings and the fact that the college was just way too quiet. Maybe it is because this vacation, I found something fun and there has been more or less a schedule that I've been sticking to. But that's ok! I know that whatever I do, I will find balance and keep myself occupied!

Plans for this upcoming week?

Hair Treatment & Trim
Riding
Meeting nutritionist
Thai Massage & Facial
Gym
Manicure & Pedicure

Appointment with my nutritionist / dietitian because...I gained weight. Yes, yes, I know I am healthy and probably look better than I have over the course of this year but I can't help but worry. I might do another round of Right Bite until Ramadan or something. It should serve to add balance to my unhealthy habits of eating out and such. Speaking of which, these two pictures are of the types of food we've been fed at my house lately. Both extremely delicious!

fairytale shoes

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 22:08:21 GMT

My aunt sent me something funny on bbm...I was so happy because I sent it to some of the people that have been spamming me with broadcasts, and some even stopped. It was so funny that I am going to type it here and translate it!

البلاك بيري و البنات
BlackBerries and Girls

1- البرودكاست 24 ساعه شغال لازم سوالفهم كل السته تعرفها يعني يراوون الناس ان سوالفهم واااو
1- Broadcasting 24/7, their entire bbm list knows everything they're up to, they want to show everyone that everything they do is like wow

2- طبعا الاشاعات عكيف كيفه مافي حد ما مات عندهم
2- Rumors all over the place, they've claimed that everyone has died at least once

3- كل شوي تطرش اغنيه او بيت شعر ما يطلبه المستمعين! و أكيد اهداء لميمي و سوسوس و فطومه و سبحان الله كلهم حبيباتها
3- Sends a song or poem every so often, to her sweeties mimi, soso & fa6oma

4- و كل يوم الساعه 12 فالليل لاااازم هابي بيرثداي لحد
4- Everyday at midnight, they have to wish someone a happy birthday

5- كلما زاد الكونتاكتس زادت الثقه بالنفس يعني كل ما شافت حد بئيده بي بي قالتله ممكن البن كود؟
5- Gets more confident as she adds more contacts, whenever she sees someone holding a BlackBerry she asks for their pin code

6- كل ما حد سألها شو أحسن تلفون قالت اكيييد البي بي ما اعرف كيف عشت بدونه كل هالسنين!
6- When asked what's a good mobile phone she says, "BB of course! I don't know how I've lived without it all these years!"

7- و أهم شي البي بي شالتنه بايدها وهي ماشيه فالمول! شكله فيه حساسيه من الشنطه
7- Always carries her BlackBerry in her hand when walking around shopping malls, as if it was allergic to her purse

8- يوم توصلها نكته تقول يااااي جديمه مال اول
8- When she receives a joke she says that's old, I've heard that one

9- طبعا يوم وحده تسوي عمرها كول تروح تزخرف نكنيمها و يستوي جنه عرس هنود
9- The "cool" ones have their nicknames typed in "symbols"

10- لازم و بشكل يومي ألعاب اختاري من 1 الى مادري كم و طبعا تختار و تحفظ الارقام الزينه عشان يوم حد ثاني يطرشلها اللعبه تختارها
10- Must play those pick from 1 to (insert number here) games on a daily basis, remembers what the "good" numbers are so when the next person tries to play the same game with her she picks it

The thing is, though, I really don't mind much of those things. I think people should do whatever they like and it makes me sick how non-blackberry users are like, "Blackberries are meant for business people! Everyone that's not a business person that owns one is just misusing it!" because seriously...if you and all your friends each subscribe for the blackberry service and it costs you less than SMS'ing them, where's the misuse? You are cutting costs. If the UAE gets something like T-Mobile's Sidekick with a similar subscription that doesn't limit text messaging, non-business people will switch to that and BlackBerry might lose its popularity.

It used to really bug me when people would spam me would broadcasts. Actually this is the only thing that bugs me. When I notice that one of my contacts had "symbled-out" their nickname and is unrecognizable, I rename them into their real name =P and now when I see a message from one of those broadcast-only people...I end conversation. What is the point of keeping them on my list? I dunno really...

My mother said this to me, "Whenever I feel like buying a new bag, I am going to go home and switch bags so I could feel like I got a new one," and this is exactly what I'll do. Dunno if it'll work with shoes, though...I got two pairs of skechers a while ago but I'm still looking for my "fairytale shoes"!

Ack! Forgot to put away my laundry again! Gonna go and do that and go to bed. Massive massive headache. Good night, my little muffin people!

you want it? you aint gonna get it!

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 11:41:45 GMT

So this morning was hilarious! I know what you're thinking, "uhoh... this entry is tagged with horses and when she says funny when talking about horses then it must mean that something scary had happened!" but I am unharmed! In fact, I fell asleep putting on my half chaps in the car on the way to the barn and sleepily made my way into the school riding a horse that on first glance seemed equally sleepy. However, as we started to approach the school I had a weird feeling. The air conditioning had been dripping on occasion and I imagined it dripping on my horse and causing her to freak out and bold around the arena. What a weird image! She had bolted with me before but it was fine, she stopped when I tightened my fingers around the reigns, and followed it with a scratch on her neck.

My left stirrup was bothering me... so I stopped her around the middle of the arena and started to adjust it. I put my stick between my right knee and the saddle to hold it in place, placed my right arm through the reins and started to fiddle the left stirrup. It was either double twisted or I was trying to double twist it, I don't remember. My horse was fidgety and at some point she jumped forward and scared this other girl's horse. I stopped her and thought nothing of it, then all of a sudden, she bolted! There she was going around the arena really fast and hmm I don't even know what my hands were doing. Trainer told me to scratch her neck and someone else told me to take hold of the reins. Five spins later my instinct was to try and grab mane...but that's where I fell over my horse's head. =X totally woke me up. Someone was making fun of me saying,

Every once in a while I end up reorganizing my closet and cleaning it out. These shorts (and several others of a similar style but other colours) are a part of my pjs but they are meant to be for sports...I wonder if they can be used for the gym?

I am currently watching the dvd of Australia's Next Top Model that ai_chyan gave me. I like that photo shoot in the episode that I missed...the whimsical circus thing...my favourite shots are of Claire, Frankie and Laura. Lola is hilarious, such a comic relief. Claire... is a model!!!

This show sort of makes me think. I don't watch much reality shows but it surprises me how people can really say the things they say like that. It is being upright bitchy! I am hot condemning them, though. People that speak their mind aren't as scary as those that choose to say nothing but their thoughts and behavior speak a whole different language...

Before I go get ready to go out, I remembered that I didn't "reveal" that little juicy bag from a while ago. Wonder if I should use it today? Maybe if it suits my outfit?

and the winner is

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 07:36:06 GMT

Today, I had a great ride! I had started to completely doubt myself after something that a girl I sometimes ride with on weekends told me. In the evening she does the 6pm class while I do the 5pm. She said she dislikes the 5pm class because she cant do everything they can. And it's true, it is an extremely experienced and very tough group where I have to struggle to keep up. If they are jumping, I usually don't do the jumps at the end of the lesson because they are too high for me. She commented that she felt like an idiot when she rode with them because it was just too tough.

It bothered me because that wasn't the way I looked at it at all. I am so stubborn and thick-headed that sometimes I refuse to see the truth, maybe there was some truth in what she said even though I did everything the rest of the group did throughout the riding lesson except for the last two jumps due to their height. Otherwise I thought I kept up with them pretty well. Was I wrong? Am I really just not strong enough for that ride? I started to think about the problems with my riding...being too passive and a bit uncomfortable steering when everyone is cantering in a different direction at the same time...not being able to keep my stirrups...flying over the jumps rather than keeping my balance and especially when I don't even feel my legs going up rather than staying strong and at my horse's side.

After spending lots of time thinking about it and dwelling about things that already happened, I decided that for my next lesson I will only concentrate on keeping my heels down. I used to be good at that, or rather, it used to be natural so I dunno what happened. I figured if I keep it in my mind I will have a feel for when my heels go up and stuff. And anyway, I got F again the horse I used to be afraid of and rode last week. This time he actually freaked out, hopped around, bolted and not once did that compromise my seat. That made me feel really good! Now I understand when the people that ride this horse used to say things like, "How do you ride C? He's crazy!" because when C hops around it is much worse. So finally it's safe to say that thin-backed horses no longer scare me! My lesson went so good and I'm pretty sure this is due to the fact that I am in a more advanced lesson during the week. I didn't think it was wrong of me to be in that lesson because I am still getting the experience and benefits anyway. What's wrong with constantly challenging myself while at the same time knowing my limits?

After warming up we crossed our stirrups over our horses' necks and trotted around without them, did loops in certain parts of the arena, then trotted poles and posted the trot only over the poles. We took our stirrups back after that and did the poles in canter, we also did loops in counter-canter. My horse does them so well despite being in a hurry to do the exercise sometimes and freaking out. We also did a jump near the end. I was just so relaxed that I didn't even think about it and my horse didn't try to run out. He did sometimes freak out at the corner right before the jump but I didn't let that stop me! We ended the lesson at a one stride double. I dunno if this horse is just easier to ride or if it was just me being relaxed or what, but I definitely felt my position improve. My heels were down and my upper body wasn't flying forwards, and I was actually sitting back into the saddle in that 1-stride! I am so proud of myself =X

There's a cooking event going on poupeegirl. The things in Katherine's shop are just so cute... but I am not as addicted to poupeegirl as I used to be...I guess I should be thankful...

that girl was me

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 23:44:16 GMT

This is going to be such an embarrassing confession but: after gym I prefer to shower there because my bathroom doesn't have any hot water unless the sun was boiling it. As in, unless I was showering during midday or early afternoon, no hot water for me. It's freezing! I might be the first to lose her sanity when air conditioning breaks in the middle of summer, but I need my hot water to shower! At least I managed to wash my hair before it got too cold... =(

"For Nice Girls That Like Stuff" - The Juicy Couture slogan always pops into my head whenever I get into this state; the state of lusting after stuff. Maybe this is really bad of me to do but where's the harm in looking? I doubt I'll buy a new bag any time soon!

Coach Patent Sabrina in silver / cobalt

Louis Vuitton Rodeo Drive in Amarante - I already have a vernis in amarante, which is why I know I would prefer it over pomme d'amore

MARC by Marc Jacobs Benny Satchel in black

Juicy Couture 'Equestrian Crown - The Tea' Satchel in Class President *cool*

Juicy Couture Pavé Heart in DK Prepster - because it makes me think of Dr. Pepper

What? You guys, stop staring at me like that! I'm not going to buy anything! Just sharing cute finds =) my aunt has a sabrina, when I was showing it to her she said she'd bring it with her next time we go out.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be good enough... the people closest to me probably already know that they don't need to give me a hard time if I mess up with something, they know I'm already the hardest on myself. They know that even if I appear to have low self-esteem at times, it's only a facade because I only expect things of highest standards from myself and strive to achieve them.

These close people should already know I would go to great lengths just to make them happy, that sometimes it is all I want to do and it gives me joy, too. The fact that sometimes I do things that disappoint them makes me feel ashamed... so ashamed that I can't even look them in the eye. However, this brings me to my next point - is it right to do something out of love and respect for another person at the expense of your own happiness? It's not that our loved ones want to cause us unhappiness or discomfort, but more like they have expectations for us that we do not necessarily wish to achieve.

Another problem with that is that I am not very confrontational, at least I used to think I was until I convinced myself I'm not. It seemed like every time I voiced out a concern or unhappiness with the choices that people imposed on me, it started a problem. And why wouldn't it? They are the way they are out of concern for me and obviously believe that they know better than I do what is better for me. It is such a confusing dilemma. Be silent and tolerate? Or be heard?

Before I go to bed, here are some pictures from our latest gathering last weekend. We wanted to throw someone a surprise party...but some people didn't show up because someone forgot to tell them... LOL... fail...

can you keep a secret?

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 13:33:27 GMT

Although it feels like a great weight has been lifted off my chest, I am still overshadowed by a sense of wondering. Did I make the right choice or did I give up too easily? Could I have fought for it longer? Or maybe the fact that I didn't have the will to fight for it simply proves that it just wasn't the thing for me? I can't help but think that my thoughts of what I want to do with my life have changed over the years. On the other hand, the thought of never gaining my independence and staying close to "Headquarters" (I mean this city as a whole) still suffocates me, so I guess it's not as if I've given up all hope completely.

This time of afternoon is always a bit sad and empty yet I am not sure what I keep relating it to. It makes me want to do a relaxing activity and drink tea. Maybe it's the period of time when I've just come home from school and being the nerd I am have lunch while playing my video game-of-the-moment. yet, after playing MMOs for as long as I have, the sheer thought of returning to console games seems plain lonely! Yet, I've been wanting to play Shadow of the Colossus but I just can't find it... where could it be? =/

Pics of the moment: Poupeegirl made me nostalgic towards Bonne Bell Lip Smackers. I currently use the watermelon one a lot and carry it in my purse because it makes me think of summer. When I was a kid and first learned to swim, my mother used to get us this sunblock from The Body Shop and it smelled like watermelons... so watermelon scented stuff will always be associated with old summer mornings and cooling up in a pool =)

Poupeegirl also influenced my Sweet Shoppe lip glosses purchase. Aren't they just cute? As for the victoria's secret fragrances, I like mini fragrance bottles because I have low-tolerance for normal size bottles. I was so happy to see that gift set at Debenhams.

i'm broken...

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 23:26:37 GMT

Some thoughts from today because I'm tired...

Strained my upper back somehow and it hurts, i wanna go for a thai massage again, it was good! We'll see when I can book it because I wanna have a facial again soon, but maybe that's not neccessary 2 weeks after my last (6 months after the one before it lol =P)

My shopping trip today yielded some loot that I'm happy with! I should be feeling guilty but thankfully I'm not! I am going to enjoy my new stuff thank you very much...but not ready to reveal because too embarrassed. However, i did refill my fredric fekkai stuff finally!

I am looking forward to riding! Ever since I had my Friday lesson I've been dreaming about horses more actively again. My evening group is pretty tough and very experienced, this is exactly what I need.

When we argue with someone important and storm out, hoping that they follow us out and tell us that everything will be ok and they don't... why aren't we willing to do the same when they are so upset that they leave? In my case I always thought that they wanted to be left alone, but then realized that in some cases, like me, they actually want me to be there for them and remind them that everything will be alright. Where do we distinguish between when people really want to be left alone, or actually need us to follow them to check on them? I guess my main problem is that I never want to act out of my place and be "unwelcome".

Decided it was time to change my diet around again. Less caffeine, less junk and more healthy food. Now that I can withstand some vegetables and fruits at least.

Still feeling unimportant...if nothing changes I don't see this lasting much longer...even though I know I have little right to feel this way right now.

I like it when he takes us out. Even though I know that he hates it, he is at least willing to make sure that we have a fun time even through his frustration of trying to find out how to get there.

Lastly, I love reusable shopping bags =) this is my latest! I got it last month though.

i come in pieces

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 10:55:05 GMT

Writing an entry with freshly painted nails is tough, but i really want to post before going out today...

I finally decided to give Yama Onna Kabe Onna another try. Started to watch it a long time ago but never went past the first episode...but when I felt like watching it again crunchyroll didn't have it anymore... thanks a lot, El Hazard! I am enjoying my new dramas =) still haven't watched any of the stuff betsuni gave me though.

Also, I am finally past the point that I reached in the Death Note manga now that I am watching the series again. When initially watching Death Note, I watched it in japanese as most do all their anime. My brother has been reading it since it first came out, he's read the whole thing (unlike some people that stopped because they were too sad it happened...=P), watched the whole series several times and even said that whenever I feel like watching it again I should tell him because he loves it and wants to watch it with me. Sometime last semester, I saw him in the living room...on his laptop...watching it in ENGLISH! In my mind, I was so judgmental! Did he love it so much that he was willing to go through the horrible dubbed versions of anime just to experience it in every possible way?

A while after that we started talking about Death Note again...and he mentioned that the English dub is actually very good. He is actually more critical of English dubs than I am and I suddenly recalled him quickly changing dvd settings in absolute terror when we accidentally changed to English. So if he thinks it's worth it... i was willing to give it a try =) i bought the dvds shortly after and have been watching the American dub, amazed by the vocals, so good! I love Ryuuzaki's voice acting the best. Can totally see him sounding like that in English.

I was doing one of those blogthings quizzes just for the heck of it while writing this entry and one of my results said something like You think of marriage as something that will confine you, you are afraid of marriage. That is so true! This is one of the reasons that "marriage" dream was such a nightmare to me. When I was talking to my mother & aunt about it they were like... aww we are sorry you have such nightmares, those people that wanted to marry you must have been evil or something like that hehe

My pillow bag! I love this little bag. It seems tiny but it actually fit a lot of stuff when I carried it for that party the other week. All the make up I was wearing I was actually able to carry with me, along with a small bottle of perfume too =)

Irk X_x maybe I am not a polish person... think I will go remove this awful looking self-painted french manicure before going out.